When I was younger, I made many wrong choices. The remorse for these choices made me receptive to the gospel as presented by a Billy Graham crusade. I prayed the sinners prayer with a counselor via telephone. At the time, this was not well received by my husband and he called me a “traitor”. My mother-in-law suggested that I attend her church. I took her suggestion and attended her church for over twenty-five years.

As I am aging, I feel that there are so many things that I should have shared about my relationship with Jesus to my family and others, but failed. Recently, when I asked my daughter and son about my Christianity, my daughter stated,”You have always tried to live by a God driven moral code”. This saddens me, because it shows that those closest to me see me as legalistic rather than having a relationship with Jesus. I do feel that for much of my life, I received Christ as my Savior and then, tried to live the Christian life on my own. So, I guess that my daughter’s statement holds true for most of my life.

What I haven’t shared is that my very being is in Christ. I owe Him all of me. Without Christ, I would feel like I have no hope. Often, I feel the Holy Spirit’s prompting to do something and it is always the right thing. I am always blown away by God’s Creation. How the more that we know about science, the more we realize how awesome God is. He deserves all my praise and honor! I enjoy reading God’s Word because it is so relevant to Everything! God’s ways are always right! God has blessed me so much! He has always provided for me, encouraged me, protected me, been by my side through hard times.

Does that mean that I don’t stumble? No, because I need to keep in constant contact with Christ to not be afraid, or to know how to respond to someone who hurts me. I need Him moment by moment. When, I drift away, I get frightened,selfish and self-centered and His love does not flow through me to those whom my life touches.

The biggest thing that blows me away about God is that He loves us so much that He is continually pursuing us.